Do you seek to understand yourself? If yes, permit me one more question for now: Would you describe yourself as non-confrontational by nature?
Answering only for myself, I must admit that I’m so far gone in this regard that even fictional confrontations in movies and literature can make me feel uncomfortable, tightening the pit of my stomach.
Be that as it may, understanding one’s own nature is not the same as passively accepting it. Moreover, let it be said that undertaking the pursuit of understanding oneself is already an implicit rejection of fatalistic passivity.
In any case, I began reflecting on this tendency of mine, asking myself, “how far does it extend?” Is it simply a matter of avoiding interpersonal confrontation or something greater? Is procrastination a type of confrontation avoidance? Meaning, perhaps, putting off confrontation with some aspect of reality itself?
Along this line of reflection, I pondered further: Am I living my life and yet avoiding its greater demands at the same time? The reality of who and what I am at this very moment, in this place and phase of my life - am I avoiding confronting what it means, where it leads, and, after taking all of this into account, what should ultimately be done? Are my daily habits symptoms of a greater turning away?
Some questions worth asking may not be worth answering - the asking itself is enough to lead to an answer by another means. Is this one such case?